People often speak of the pastor's Monday blues. I.m not particularly aware of being a sufferer but that may just be that I get the Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday blues too so it doesn't hit me so hard. I had a genuine case yesterday, however. The way it goes for me is not really that I think I didn't preach well, although that can be the case. What is worse is thinking of how many were not there and the lack of power in the messages. Our own assessments are of little value and if you can get to the end of the day repentant and eager to start again (which I managed only by this morning to be honest) that is enough.
Numbers were down perhaps because of half term but there were loads not there. (What is worse on the day the clocks Spring forward is that you foolishly imagine we will all be an hour early but in fact it is the same, indeed usually worse than ever). I preached on Acts 9:19ff and Matthew 15:1-20. It is interesting the way the disciples just cannot accept Paul's conversion at first but Barnabas saves the day with his positive encouragement. We all know we ought to be Barnabases but it looks so dangerous! I'm trying to be one at the moment with a proposed new member. It's taking almost all I've got.